I can’t count the many of nights my tears saturated my pillows due to whirlwinds. Some where self inflicted whirlwinds and others tried to sweep me away by association. If your foundation was built on sand these whirlwinds will take you for a ride of your life. But, if your foundation was built on solid ground these whirlwinds will leave you with a few bumps and bruises to jump start an amazing testimony. I was taught at an early age that you, “Reap what you sow.” Basically, my self inflicted whirlwinds I knew I had coming so I just sucked it up and guarded my loins. Oh! But, those association whirlwinds in my case took years to accept and get accustomed to.
My first association whirlwind occurred at the tender age of fifteen. When my parents decided to end their marriage they decided to take me and my siblings through an unwanted whirlwind. See whirlwinds are tricky. You can either cause a deserving whirlwind because you disobeyed or experience a whirlwind due to the backwash of someone else’s transgression. Hosea 8:7 reads,
“They sow the wind, and they reap the whirlwind.”
That’s a harsh pill to swallow at a young age. I have to reap a whirlwind and I didn’t even cause the wind! This is where that solid rock foundation had to kick in. Well, lets say I failed a lot of tests but I managed to pass the final. I didn’t handle my whirlwind accordingly you could say. I literally and when I say literally I really did kick and scream my way to a peaceful disturbance. Yes, a peaceful disturbance: something that eats at you slowly and quietly till you’re forced to become a disturbance. Eventually, we all get to that place where we disturb the peace with anger, bitterness and rebellion. My actions were a wind to be reckoned with. Then there came a time where true peace was no longer an option but a necessity. Its impossible to have peace without resistance. I resisted for a decade before God released his peace over my life. Can you withstand a whirlwind for ten years? Yeah, I don’t know how I last but God did.
Have you ever experienced both an association whirlwind and a self inflicted whirlwind at the same time? I might be a walking oxymoron. Entertaining ungodly relationships (self inflicted whirlwind) and struggling to manage the divorce (association whirlwind) I changed my pillow cases often you can see. In hindsight it was very easy for me to NEVER take accountability for my self inflicted whirlwinds when I could easily just blame it all on the association whirlwind. Then that solid foundation thing forced itself into play. Galatians 6:7-8 says,
“Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, this he will also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh shall from the flesh reap corruption.”
You might as well call me corrupt because that’s where my life was. When you’re caught in the midst of a whirlwind you can’t see. Especially, if you don’t want to see nor take accountability for your high winds that caused the whirlwinds to begin with. Because I knew better my self inflicted whirlwinds were high on the scale. When God loves you deeply………..He disciplines you severely. By God’s grace I survived the storm, but the pain at times seemed more than I could bear.
Whatever whirlwind you find yourself in today there’s a lesson to be learned. When God does or allows something it will ALWAYS work out for your good. It has to, because he promised! There will never be a self inflicted whirlwind or an association whirlwind that you will like but you will appreciate it at the end. I won’t tell you I enjoyed my storm but I will tell you that I LEARNED from my storm. I learned to plant my feet on solid ground. Most of all, he was with me the entire time so I could learn peace.